Category : Poems

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Alienated and Solitude in a world so foreign
Swamps of self pity all around
Allow me to swallow my pride and wallow. 
What else is there to do?
How could I not? 
Haunted, 
I find myself, 
By skeletons in my closet
That I didn't even put there.
So daunting,
The perception
That their intention is to block the high way to my future. 
Oh! How badly I want out!
The need for liberation so real
'Coz the sympathy of bystanders
Just isn't cutting the chase no more.
And I know,
I'm well aware that I can't keep making the guy next door pay for what he did.
I ought to toughen up
And solely fill this void he created. 
He hated me before I was born,
Hurt me before I knew how to feel.
He denied me the love of a father,
Never gave me a chance to prove myself deserving of it.
To him,
Whether I live Or be dead,
They both are equivalent to nothing
Because the light of my existence never dawned in his world.
He carved deep into my being,
A distrust for males 
I try so hard but I can't do anything about.
Yet I need to walk past it,
I know.
He brewed in me,
A loath for the opposite sex
I fail to shake off.
Yet I need to get over it,
I'm well aware.
He robbed me of my right To be a daughter, 
Perhaps, As a result, 
I won't know how to be a wife.
He said nothing,
Yet his silence hurled insults at me.
He did not do a thing,
But his negligence drove a sword through my being. 
He walked away, And his departure trooded hard upon my heart.
He folded his arms
And blocked my very existence from his sight
And that stoned me to death...
Yet I wish to live free off this curse
Of the spell cast upon me by "My dad"?No! That's not a dad,
Daddy aren't like that,
He's just A man called my dad