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When I came out as a baby 
always felt energetic and cheerful 
kept on living, my life never knew 
everything in this world as a child 
I used to have been teased and emotionally bullied, but I didn’t have any emotional response. 
The first day at Rose Hill Junior High 
I was different from other students 
can’t keep up with regular peoples 
because I was a special person, 
My social skill wasn’t that great 
until I was in sixth grade 
few peoples knew about, my birth condition, so 
they stop to play with me a year later 
I enrolled in high school. 
In my freshman and sophomore years 
everything was going amazing, until 
I was in my junior year begun to have 
social-emotional development, my birth 
condition emotional symptom started 
to rose into a big mess in, my teenager 
year. 
People thought I was the problem 
in reality, I wasn’t they didn’t know everything about me and I wasn’t taken seriously, 
it’s caused my mental and emotional health 
went downhill. 
Had been seen a counselor 
I was in my teen and had a slower 
process of express 
how I felt because I was sensitive 
to all the emotion, I was feeling in my head
nobody knew the truth why I was out of control 
typical friends, in high school never knew I had 
a difficult birth condition. 
I used to be hurt by three peoples 
in my high school. 
When I finally graduated from high school 
transferred to transition program, in there 
I never understand, the condition had things in common with mine. 
At the age of twenty-one, I came out from 
that program a year later I was enrolled into 
Bellevue College in the winter quarter, afterward 
in the fall quarter, I met Christian Fellowship peoples. 
One of them invited me to play a game 
on the next day, never knew you were 
behind me, I started to feel confused 
what we were doing.
Begun to felt frustrated if not understand 
the direction of the game, that’s where you 
came in pulled a seat next to me, helped me 
out. 
At the time you never knew everything about me 
when you reached out to grab a pencil I felt, 
your hand touched the back of my hand 
you grab my attention, that’s when I turn 
around. 
You were so into me the first day we first met 
the truth was I never knew you existed, in this college and never had met anybody like you 
who was interested in me, that was my first time 
in life, that I can understand your perspective 
only from my experience in life. 
There is a deeper emotional connection, we still have with each other, but I never experience being broken up before. 
That’s hurt my feeling by doing this to me 
and had the same high school feelings that 
push you away, wish you understand I’m 
not the problem is my medical condition, 
that causes it. 
Wish I can tell you and other people about it, 
you and your friends go easy on me, I would 
never want to hurt you mentally, 
I wasn’t the reason it’s mental and emotional 
the health of my birth condition had cause it, 
you’ve not told anybody about, my past mistakes to anybody because I’m sensitive to my emotion.
Just can’t control what I felt and wished you stop tell anybody about everything I did to you, 
can you please stop blaming me for everything? 
You may not know everything about me and the life I used to have before, but I can understand you were under busy life until 
you had enough of me, the truth is we still 
have an emotional connection with each other. 
It's better if we go back used to be before. 
I know it’s hurt you mentally getting back to me 
even though you don’t want to I want to give you, the happiness you deserve the truth is 
we still have a deeper emotional connection 
with each other, and understand one another
can we restart our friendship? 
We’re meant to be with each other 
you had told me about everything about yourself to me, I need you back into my life, there nobody else 
will accept me who I am underneath, and my backstory like you do. 
This is the first time I had you as my boyfriend, and you wanted to break up with me, I came a long 
way to had you, this happens to me, you don't know I have been hurt since in and out of high school 
and this had to crush me. And this happens to me, 
I don’t want to do this to you, but you hurt me mentally I will have to be silent on you 
if you don’t like to stay in a relationship 
with me, I just can’t be your friend end of 
our relationship knows what will happen if we ever do, that’s why I need to avoid it, your shadow in my heart is so tender right now.  
I never had a boyfriend for a long time 
why is okay for you to be done with me 
and this made me hurt mentally, 
you push me to the side just 
keep on going forward without me, 
you rip my good reputation in front of them 
how can I trust you after that? 
I still will go easy on you even though 
you are just like me, but I wish you never 
had said we’re breaking up for good 
because it made me frustrated and confused 
what was going on, if you told me I wouldn’t 
be to hold back those feelings inside me 
if you didn’t tell me. 
Because I’m sensitive to my emotion easily 
I have six emotions got inside my mind 
I can feel my mood at a fast rate but slow to express how I felt which can affect me in different ways in a public environment nobody knows that about me.