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You didn’t know how I figure this out 
ever since we first met with each other 
you love blind by me and you were just 
like me, in my high school years. 
I remembered when we were in this 
Christian Fellowship with our amazing friends 
there were a lot of strict rules causes you 
thought hard about your decision, after listening 
to, what she said to you that stuck in your mind. 
I want to comfort you, but I heard you said to me “ I just need time and space to think this through”, as you may not know I knew something was not right and feel the 
same emotion as you, when you left I was all 
alone middle of the night. 
Increased heart rate beating fast 
can’t understand and I can’t calm down, 
even we emotionally hurt each other, by our similar inner struggles. 
Can’t understand and communicate with each other very well and you told a few, of your different types of friends, what I did to you.
You never knew what I know and share with them were not the real truth about us and our 
romantic relationship, that just part of it there more to it that you never knew about. 
Understand the truth behind everything been going on, you never knew about don’t get me 
wrong I still love being in the Christian Fellowship and like many peoples, but their strict rules and, we made mistakes include 
emotionally hurt each other.
Lead to changes within you and your heart 
I will still be, the same person with the same heart it’s hard for me to move on, and as 
you may not know there one thing we have 
in common. 
That is we prefer the sameness and same routines and never going to change if it did, 
we may act and behave differently and say or do things in a certain way if, we can’t have what we want. 
This is hard for me to accept changes in life 
because of that reason, even though we’re 
different, we have similar inner struggles as each other. 
I’m part of you and you tried everything you 
can want me to move on 
do you think is it worth your time and energy to make me do the same thing as other people do?
let’s be honest it's not that easy 
know this can stress you out if you 
keep pressure on me, it’s can tired you out 
I’d want to you stop pushing yourself 
try to make me more like other peoples and do 
other people do, it’s won’t work on me. 
Can be like other peoples and have adult knowledge, it depends on a certain area in life but in some cases, if you pressure me to be 
like other people and do what they do, that when I can’t change myself. 
It’s similar to you as a child 
but, I’m just sensitive to transition in life 
I can’t get myself together, 
if you know yourself 
why can you understand me? 
I do have similar inner struggles as you 
I’d want you to be kind and be gentle to my 
sensitive to transition to changes 
I can be emotional hurt when you, 
won’t open up everything to me 
talk to everybody else instead of me 
I can be sensitive to your emotions, 
even I can feel the same way as you 
I won’t feel better until you tell me. 
If you tell me what you’re feeling 
listen to, what you have to say 
you never do this to me, you 
used to always open up everything 
to me. 
You just emotionally shut me out 
do you know what makes me feel?
Why you prefer to listen to two besties over me? 
take their decision and act on it 
I know the truth why we broke up 
and you know half of it not the whole thing 
I knew before you know about it.