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Never have stress in my childhood 
always smiling and laughing bright 
everybody’s day, even I was a kind 
genuine with a warm caring heart 
I was a very positive and energetic person, 
was being liked by many peoples. 
When it came to my teenage years 
freshman and Sophomore years were going well, peoples didn’t know what was wrong with me, hormones and emotional changes within me slow to felt that strong negative emotions 
within me. 
That was my first time having stress without knowing that I had educational changes, with a new environment, as a teenager with a hidden condition I was born with can be overwhelming for me. 
Ever since I reached my junior and senior years 
wasn’t being liked by anybody due to my ongoing overwhelming stress without knowing it increased heart rate within me and my eyes were full of tears can’t get myself together 
everything was become overwhelming for me, 
I can’t calm down many peoples, in there always blaming me for things I didn’t do and had got rejected, by someone I used to have a crush on during my high school years. 
Because of many reasons I was being hated 
I tried to please my teachers and peers, it didn't work on them. 
I was always felt all alone and without anybody 
spent time with, always stay at home after school at night I had a sleepless night, with a 
circle under my eyes. 
The next day at school I was more out of my mind, this kept on going until I finally graduated from 
high school, 
a year later the same thing started all over again 
from the beginning, in the fall quarter of Bellevue College everything was going well. 
About a month always smiling and laughing 
made many people’s day even I was a kind 
and genuine with, the kindest heart about a year later the same thing, as in my junior and senior years. 
This is my second time having stress without 
knowing it 
where is my childhood personality? 
Why am I easily overwhelmed? 
What’s going on with me? 
My happiness is to be the person I used 
to be as a child and have the personality 
I used to have before 
why am I easily stressed over transitioning 
in life? 
I do want to be more like other peoples 
and do they can do, but I can’t 
my brain won’t let me do things 
they can do, this complex dilemma 
is a hard for me to do. 
Having something I was born with 
can be a serious problem for me 
there nothing I can do about it, 
I used to transition from childhood to teenager 
why can’t I transition from what I am right now 
and start over with my life? 
Stressful changing environment is too much 
for me already.