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I used to be very energetic 
with a bright smile on my face, 
live my life without half the emotions 
I didn’t have 
ever since end of Sophomore year in high school, 
my first time had all the emotions
 came into, my brain emotions get control of 
me. 
I was in a dark and frightening 
stress with poor mental health, 
it’s kept happening to me
when I came out from the darkness. 
A year later, 
something happy happen to me, 
I used to enjoy socializing and talking 
with other peoples, 
ever since something had happened to me 
during the summer, 
began to spent less time with my family members 
started distance myself from peoples 
always being, by myself in my room 
have stopped talking many peoples 
“ what is going on with her?”
it’s hard to live a life with something 
I was born with and take it under control 
everyday life-changing make it the worst on me, I have been through many hard times throughout, 
my previous and current life 
I feel like I’m falling into a deep dark hole. 
Peoples I still have to want me, to be happy 
and live my life. 
How can I be happy and pretending I 
don’t have negative emotions? 
Can’t go back I used to be as a child 
I’m sensitive to changes in life, I feel 
like they pressure me to do things, that 
hard for me to do. 
They say to me, you’ll found your 
happiness and look at the bright side of things”. 
It makes it the worst on me 
saw the world differently
since I was a child, even
though I’m an adult 
there be things hard for me, 
to deal with and sudden changes in life 
is one of them. 
I know they care about me and want to see me smile and live a happy life 
think positive about things 
I really appreciate all that, but 
make me feel uncomfortable with 
make it the worst on me. 
It’s not because I don’t desire to 
once life changes, my brain 
have harder time to adapt, 
that can affect me. 
My eyes begin to tear up 
feel the pressure on me, 
they think is easy for me, 
in reality, is not the simple 
peoples may think of me, as 
weird and can’t be like them 
accept the life it is. 
I tolerate teenager to adult life 
is already hard for me right now
all I want them to know, 
even though I’m a person like you, but life changes its causes me, 
to feel stress then I won’t stop crying. 
That’s because I’m sensitive to 
life changing situation 
without one of the important people 
I used to have before. 
I won’t be who I am today 
when I was at my worst he helped me 
he was the most caring and thoughtful 
person, I’m praying to Jesus thank you 
give me a special person who came into my life 
rescue me from my sin and darkness 
I’m in between, and I don’t know what to do 
God, please help my close friend to graduate 
college he deserves it makes, his dream 
come true I give him to you because he 
has been through a tough life. 
I do care about him and his life 
I’ll lift him up when, if he falls I’ll be there, to catch him. 
I know what he’s going through 
from my experience of life, 
give him a friendly hug wish I could 
the brightness of light shine down onto him, 
he deserves everything in life, he deeply cares 
for me and give him a caring heart.
He is the biggest factor in my life 
to be honest without him, I wouldn’t be who I am today,
if it wasn’t for him, I won’t know how to improve 
everything in my life, on my own 
 he helps me improve as a person and my life and taught me things I put off for so long, 
ever since he knows all of my previous life experiences and the truth behind what’s going on with me, 
I consider him as my close friend.